First, here’s my dad. And his very large fish. My dad is a very talented fisherman (can you be *talented* at fishing?). I have no other photos to post so thought I would post this one since it’s making me smile.
Anyway, a few bookish thoughts…
* I started to read Happiness Is An Inside Job by Sylvia Boorstein (upon recommendation from my aunt). It’s basically about Buddhist loving-kindness meditation and how to use it in everyday situations. Which seems like it would be a nice book to read, right? Instead, it’s making me feel very anxious and uncomfortable. I’m not sure why. The more I read, the worse I feel. So I’m putting it down. Maybe I’m just not feeling like I should read anything that is telling me (or even kindly suggesting) that I ought to be doing something else on top of everything. Also, I really don’t need any reminders that life is fleeting and I need to stay in the moment. That is right in front of my nose all the time, thank you very much. So… maybe it’s not what I need right now.
(however, coincidentally, there have been a few times in the past few days where I’ve seen strangers who look very very unhappy — walking by me, stifling sobs, that sort of thing — and because I read about doing this in the book, I send them some loving and comforting thoughts and energy. So maybe it’s doing me some good anyway)
* I’m also reading The Picture of Dorian Gray
on Daily Lit. It’s really great. It’s a little odd to read just a few paragraphs a day, however. I’m not sure how much I like the format of getting only a small snippet of something every day, with no way to keep reading if you feel like it. I was also reading Emma
that way, but I think Austen is best read in giant chunks because it’s difficult to keep everyone and everything straight if you aren’t immersed in it. Do you know about Daily Lit
? It’s fun.
* I have to get to the library this weekend. I need to get my book club book, and I’m out of anything else to read. I’m reading Free-Range Kids which is really funny and fascinating, but it’s not exactly relevant to my life since I have no kids… however, it’s passing the time until I can get to the library!
In other news, the janitors at my job apparently vacuumed up the cord to my heating pad (which I keep on my lap at all times because it’s freezing in my office) . When I got in this morning, it was absolutely filthy and had that burned-vacuum smell. You know when you accidentally suck up a cord or string or something? That horrible smell (and sound)? Yeah. It was disgusting. It still smells terrible, too. I had to get one of those Mr. Clean sponge thingies and scrub it down because it was so filthy. Yuck.
I’ve been in a strange place lately. Just feeling somewhat disconnected — but that’s not really it. I feel like there is something brewing. Plans to be made, etc. Probably just thinking about the stuff I alluded to in my previous post. I feel very busy and very preoccupied with plans. Not that I’m really making any plans… I’m just planning on making plans. You know how that is?
It’s interesting because I feel very centered, very certain of myself (which is awesome after spending the last 15 years feeling so unfocused), and I feel like I have a number of very viable paths ahead of me. But I haven’t quite stepped onto one yet — I’m in that just-before stage. I’m just watching to see what’s going to be the first one, as they shift and vie for the #1 slot. It’s all very interesting in a super-detached way.
And finally, we are rewatching all of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. If you have not seen this series, put it on your Netflix list STAT!! It is *so* good.